Stupid Dirty
Audiobook

Stupid Dirty, by Erin Russell

By Erin Russell

★★★★☆ 4.3/5 (2 reviews)

Read by Alexander Cendese

🎧 9 hours and 57 minutes 📘 Podium Audio 📅 27 August 2024 🌐 English

About this Audiobook

Cade

I always thought of Silas Rush as my biggest rival on the track and a stuck-up loner off of it. He and his fancy pro career left our crappy hometown in the dust before high school even finished, and then I didn’t think of him much at all.

I was too busy trying to keep my little sisters from turning into addicts like our mom, and myself from turning into a rage-junkie like our dad. All while keeping food on the table.

Now he’s back, reminding me of all the things I don’t have, just like he always did.

Except now we’re both adults. And when I… y’know… talk to the guy for once, it looks like my teenage self might have been too distracted to see all the things that Silas didn’t have as well.

After catching him at his lowest possible moment, my heart goes out to the guy I used to hate. All my anger turns to guilt, and instead of a rival, I somehow end up with a socially awkward new best friend who’s just as screwed up as I am.

Which I can handle. I can admit when I’m wrong. As long as things between us don’t get any more complicated or confusing, I can handle it.

Silas

I have a very camera-ready smile. Dad always told me if I wanted to make my pro motocross career stick, I needed to get over all the awkwardness and anxiety that ruined high school for me and learn to act like a real boy for the public.

Never mind that I didn’t want to be a pro rider, smile for the camera, or live life with Dad on the road and never know what it’s like to have a real friend or – gasp – relationship. Years and years of motocross training, publicity training, and all-the-rest-of-it training, I still don’t have a life, and one stupid mistake has left my precious career in the toilet.

The last person I expect to pull me out of this hole is Cade Waters. I’m pretty sure everyone hated me in high school, but Cade was front and center. Which sucked, because, with everyone else, he was sunshine personified. I was always the only person who sparked that anger in him, and I never even knew how I did it.

So, when Cade not only swoops in to help me in my darkest moment but decides to abandon our childhood rivalry and adopt me as his newest bestie/pity project, I’m not sure how to take it.

What I do know is that after a lifetime of having nothing I really wanted, all it takes is one glimpse of Cade’s life to get me hooked. He’s a mess, sure, just like I am. But all that sunshine… I want to grab onto it with both hands and never let go. No matter how confusing that feeling may be.

Stupid Dirty is a high-heat, high-angst M/M romance about dirt bikes, childhood trauma, and figuring out how to love someone the best way you can. For mature listeners.

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Clara’s Verdict

I don’t reach for M/M romance nearly as often as I should, and Stupid Dirty reminded me precisely why I’m a fool for that. Erin Russell has written something that hits harder than its premise suggests – this isn’t a breezy sports romance with a bit of heat bolted on. It’s a genuinely affecting story about two young men carrying wounds from deeply dysfunctional families, finding in each other something they’ve never been allowed to have. I was three chapters in before I realised I’d completely stopped noticing the word count. That’s the measure of a good book.

What sets it apart is the pacing of the emotional development. Russell is patient in a way that a lot of romance authors aren’t. Cade and Silas earn every moment of their connection. The rivals-to-friends-to-something-more arc never feels rushed or contrived, and by the time things get complicated between them, you’re already so invested in both characters that the tension feels genuinely earned. Add in a narrator who brings real warmth to the performance, and you’ve got one of the more quietly impressive listens of recent memory.

About the Audiobook

This is the first book in the Possum Hollow series. Cade Waters grew up fast – keeping his younger sisters from repeating his mother’s addictions and his father’s rage, all while putting food on the table. He’s built his life around control, obligation, and the suppression of everything messy. Silas Rush, meanwhile, was packaged and marketed as a pro motocross star before he’d finished secondary school, groomed by a father who turned him into a publicity asset rather than a person. He left their hometown without a backwards glance, and Cade never forgave him for it.

When Silas returns following a career-ending mistake, Cade finds him at his lowest – and despite a decade of resentment, something in him can’t walk away. What follows is an enemies-to-friends story that slowly, convincingly tips into romance. Russell is interested in the texture of emotional damage: how it shapes the way people interact, how it makes intimacy feel threatening, how it can be slowly, carefully dismantled. The motocross setting gives the book a grounded physicality, but the real terrain is emotional.

The book is upfront about its mature content – high-heat, high-angst, and not without difficult themes around childhood trauma and family dysfunction. Russell handles these elements with care rather than sensationalism. Both Cade and Silas feel like real people with histories, not props in a romance plot.

The Narration

Alexander Cendese narrates, and he’s a strong choice for this material. The dual POV structure – alternating between Cade and Silas – requires a narrator who can signal the shift in voice without being heavy-handed about it, and Cendese manages it well. His Cade has a rougher edge, a held-back quality that suits someone who’s spent years keeping himself in check. His Silas is quieter, more hesitant, conveying the social anxiety that runs through the character without making it feel like a caricature.

The emotional scenes are delivered with restraint rather than melodrama, which is exactly the right call for this kind of material. The nearly ten-hour runtime passes quickly, which is testament to how well the performance sustains the story’s momentum.

What Readers Say

The response to Stupid Dirty has been genuinely enthusiastic, with a rating of 4.3 from early listeners. UK readers have been particularly vocal. One called it “beautiful” and finished it in a single day, saying “these boys will burrow so deeply into your heart.” Another praised the slow-build emotional development: “their feelings developed slowly and it’s not an instant love – but what I also liked is it’s not just about them falling in love but also about their family life and how they survive on a daily basis.” A third described it as “such a fun read” with “hot spicy scenes” and genuine warmth throughout.

The sole more measured review flagged that the payoff doesn’t quite match the strong early sections – a fair observation – but even that reviewer acknowledged the initial stages of the friendship as “genuinely engaging.” The consensus leans decisively positive.

Who Should Listen?

If you enjoy M/M romance with emotional depth rather than pure heat – think characters you’d recognise from real life rather than romantic archetypes – this is absolutely worth your time. It will also appeal to readers who like working-class settings and stories where the stakes feel personal rather than dramatic. Fans of second-chance, enemies-to-lovers, and found-family threads will find plenty to enjoy here, and the motocross backdrop adds a distinct texture you won’t find in most romance listens.

Be prepared for some difficult themes around addiction and domestic dysfunction – they’re handled sensitively, but they’re present. This is a book for grown-up readers who want their romance to mean something.

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What listeners say

★★★★★

Amazing ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Wow i honestly cannot describe how much i loved this book. Both Cade and Silas are well developed likeable characters and Silas i wanted to wrap him up and make everything better. The story flows nicely and there isnt a dull moment. There feelings developed slowy and its not an…

– Delly
★★★★☆

Loved it

Completely unexpected the way this book made me feel but I loved it from start to finish. These boys are just wonderful and together they became everything. I loved the side characters too, Wish, Tristan and Ford. Can’t wait to read more about Possum Hollow

– Kellymg78
★★★★★

Binged it

I had to review. I finished this book in a day, probably less. If you need a sign to read it, this is it. These boys will burrow so deeply into your heart and you’ll never want them out. Beautiful book.

– afnan
★★★☆☆

Promising Setup, Fizzled Payoff

For those drawn to high-heat, angsty romance with an enemies-to-lovers arc, Stupid Dirty checks off a lot of boxes. With Cade and Silas – two guys dragging emotional baggage from their past lives and childhood rivalry – meeting again as broken adults, it’s easy to see why readers are hooked…

– Ioana
★★★★★

so sweet

This was such a fun read. Loved both main characters and story. The spicy scenes were so hot and I was smiling throughout the whole book. Some hard hitting stuff but so glad they got their HEA!

– Molly

Frequently asked questions

How long is the Stupid Dirty audiobook?

The unabridged audiobook runs for 9 hours and 57 minutes.

Who narrates Stupid Dirty?

This audiobook is narrated by Alexander Cendese.

Can I listen to Stupid Dirty for free?

Yes: new Audible UK members get a 30-day free trial with 1 credit, enough for this audiobook whatever its retail price. Our free audiobooks guide lists every other legal option.

Is Stupid Dirty part of a series?

Yes, it belongs to the Possum Hollow series: see all the volumes in order.

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